So now when I come in late(We're talking TWO FUCKING MINUTES here) my boss CRIES and does everything in her power to make me feel like the worst person in the world.

Can't I ever catch a fucking break jesus christ

So, over the past few weeks, I've slowly come to realize what I've been denying to myself for years now: I am a lazy piece of shit. Like if there was an embodiment of sloth it'd probably be me.

Now let me explain: Ever since elementary school, I've seen many psychologists for various reasons, and all of them came to the same conclusion: I was a gifted child. We're not talking boy-genius level here, but basically I've always had a good head on my shoulders and I can learn things pretty quickly(I was pretty much fluent in english by the time I was 11-12 thanks to VIDEO GAMES for example) if I put my heart into it.

Thing is, that also means I can get passable grades without much effort. I realized this about halfway through high school, and took advantage of it, since by the time I did I'd also stopped being a shy fat kid with no gutso whatsoever and started neglecting my studies in favor of doing all the stupid shit you do when you're near the end of your high school years.

I paid for this in full when college sign-ups came around and my grade average wasn't high enough to get into the course I wanted(Multimedia integration, its basically a course where you learn how to program (lots of)code and webpages(THIS IS A GIANT PAIN IN THE ASS AND ANYONE WHO GENUINELY ENJOYS DEBUGGING JAVASCRIPT CODE IS NOT HUMAN OK), use programs like flash, photoshop, illustrator, soundbooth, etc) and I got stuck taking another one that was basically High school but with math replaced with philosophy.

I stayed in this course for a year and half until I switched to a slightly better one, and this allowed me to get more motivated and I guess I got good enough grades to get in MI since they called me to ask if I was still interested during the summer.

After I got in I thought it'd be all sunshine and rainbows, but thanks to my old habits I managed to fuck myself over once again. Thing is, it got worse than that, I actually started to feel like maybe getting in that course was a bad choice after all, and that I'd never be good at all that stuff, until Chris, my Animation teacher(also the best I've ever had) made me realize that no, I don't suck one bit, I'm just really lazy. Like when I look at my grades I realize that I have 75%+ in most of my homework/exams and the reason why my grades aren't as good as I'd like them to be is because I turned some of them way late or just plain didn't do them(the latter weren't worth much though, nothing more than 5%. The reason I didn't do them was because I slept in class a whole lot near the beginning of the semester since I hadn't completely adapted to my new sleep schedule yet and I missed the memo I guess). What really triggered all this was when he told the class about our latest assignment, which took me around 9 hours to complete, would count as a bonus, because in his two classes, only THREE students actually finished it, myself included :awesome:. He also said that it might've been too hard to give such an assignment to beginners, and that they would only have to finish 1/6 of it.
Normally I would be pissed that I'd missed the easy way out, but working on all this made me improve drastically and I'll be damned if I don't feel awesome and superior to everyone else now.

But anyways, now that I realize all this, I think its time for me to change all that. I want to be rid of that stupid fucking laziness before it actually fucks up my life for real. Because seriously when I look at all the time I've wasted on whatever instead of being productive I really loathe myself and I feel like a goddamn gradeschool student who doesn't know how to prioritize shit. But I guess I'll have to "grow up" too, just like dad. Speaking of him he's out in the boonies at some rehab center for 3 weeks so I'll be able to get some peace & quiet for a bit.

But yeah that's why I'm taking a break from most things internet until my semester ends, which should be around the 20th or so. All I really have left are a couple of assignments/labs and the obvious finals. While I'm only in danger of failing one of my five classes(which is not gonna happen you have my word for it), all these things I didn't do really brought my grades below the class average in most of them and well I really need to make the most of the time I have left if I want to have kickass grades by the end of the semester.

Anyways, that post's long enough as it is and I haven't gotten much sleep this week so I'm gonna go to bed now. I'll probably be on AIM/msn from time to time but don't expect to see me around much for at least the next two weeks. See you guys later!

-A moron fag who can't learn how to focus and study properly

Oh god mitchsanctum found the best msn script ever

( RECESS I CHOSE YOU )

So tonight I went to see The fourth Kind with a bunch of friends at my local theater. It was okay but if I hadn't been baked as hell I probably wouldn't have taken it seriously.

But anyways, the reason why this place is fucking awesome is because they always show the New Moon trailer reverse and upside down. At first I thought it was a bug in the film but I went to see around five movies since the trailer started coming out and it played like this every time. Its so fucking goofy that every time the room starts laughing until it ends, the everyone applauses.

In other news I am swamped with work and my computer can't run anything CS4 so I'm pretty much fucked until I get a new computer, which should be around christmas. Bleh.

So as I told some of you the prof found my USB so I didn't have to do my shit all over again. This is great because the feeling of losing everything made the week fucking unbearable.

But now everything's fine because its thanksgivings break so we have a week off and absolutely no homework to do during it!

I think I'll gonna spend the entirety of it alternating between playing video games all night(DEMON'S SOULS especially) and getting smashed.

Today during lunch I sat right next to everything that's wrong with the internet.

AKA 8 greasy 4channers huddled around a computer browsing /d/ in the loudest way possible.
For those unfamiliar with 4chan /d/ is the section with tentacle rape, dickgirls shoving turds down their urethra and the like. I was I was making this up, there's so much shit I wish i could forget.(I was curious the first few times they started laughing/screaming so I glanced at the monitor only to be greeted with something that made me want to bleach my eyes, urgh)


Aaaaaah get out of my life Greaseball Mcgees.

On a lighter note I haven't been around much(and probably won't be for a bit) because of WIZARDY: TALE OF THE FORSAKEN LAND. Seriously this game is raping my ass and I am loving every second of it, its bascially like Etrian Odyssey but bigger, harder and with no loli paladins.

And uh I'll catch up with everyone's entries/memes/whatever tomorrow(PROBABLY) because it is 2 am and I have class at 8.

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF

One Piece D best

Starting this course was the best decision I've ever made


I swear I'm fucking happier than I've ever been in the past 6 years.

I'll make a bigger post later

I'M FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

I'd insert a ton of .gifs depicting glee in this post but its 3 am and I just can't be bothered.

So yeah if you need me I'll just be outside actually enjoying my summer(and working).

I don't care if its fake or not I can't breathe

EDIT: fucking lol @ 1:28

So yeah I'm getting ready for my bandage change, which might be my last, because according to the nurse the wound was almost closed up Friday so it might be(or might not) be fully healed now so I should be able to take it off soon. I'm really glad because I was expecting this recovery period to last much longer.

And man as annoying as this whole ordeal was, I totally didn't see the last 20 or so days fly by. This is mostly due to TF2 and LOST(Up to season 3 now, watching Sawyer beat the shit out of Pickett was mighty satisfying, also lol Kate Auslut), but also thanks to my awesome friends who came to hang out almost every day(Might be due to the fact that my parents don't give a shit about them smoking but still), so I really didn't have time to mope around or be bored.

But yeah tl;dr GENTLEMEN, MY SUMMER IS JUST STARTING

Just came back from getting my bandage changed. The wound's closing at a pretty fast pace according to the nurses, but its still unclear as on when I'll be free.

In other news I'm going at a family friend's second residence for the weekend and its in the boonies so I won't have the interbutts.

Also here's a meme because I'm bored.

❝who do you ship me with?❞

I might neg you when I get back depending on your answer

So I got a call from college earlier saying that THEY HAVE ROOM FOR ME IN MULTIMEDIA GOD FUCKING FINALLY yeeeessssssssssssss(Its probably due to my getting 90s in both of my most important finals and projects rofl) I've been waiting for two years now! And since I'm already done with my litterachur and philosophy classes I'll only have 5 classes instead of 7 so it won't have to go through the complete hell that most freshmen who take course go through.(I have two friends who dropped out within a month)

Also my best friend(like ever) came from over an hour away to spend some good times with me and the old gang and its been awesome so far, he's even considering getting TF2! As if things weren't awesome enough my mom just came home with UPLIFTER

God I'm so happy i just

So my back-vacuum gave out last night while I was still asleep which made the drain dry up and clog and I woke up in pain this morning so I called the clinic for an emergency appointment and they removed my machine and gave me a bandage until tomorrow. It doesn't hurt anymore and I can move around freely again so I went to see Up with mom and man it was awesome. A+ would watch again.

After getting home I went at my buddy's place for a bit and and got home early because I felt like playing some TF2 but I couldn't because it was laggy as hell, my computer came close to crashing whenever there were more than 3 people onscreen.

I wish I could keep using bandages instead of that shitty vacuum that breaks all the time, but apparently it'll take two months if I try that method, oh well.

So my friend(and neighbor) threw a party yesterday, I had a blast since there were people I hadn't seen in a while. We basically dicked around the pool, got drunk and played rockband. I have to perfect voice to sing Enter Sandman, it would seem.

Oh yeah and now that I got TF2 working I can't stop playing, I stayed up playing it until 7 am this morning orz I'm pretty terrible with everyone but Pyro and Medic though, although I haven't really gave a chance to Engineer and Spy yet, but I'm probably too retarded to play them anyways.


EDIT: After playing all afternoon I gotta say I got pretty good with Heavy :layton1: I think I'm getting the hang of demoman too!

EDIT2: FUCK YEAH FORCE-A-NATURE YOU ARE THE BEST

Also meme for the cool kids

The problem with LiveJournal is that we think we're close, but really, we know nothing about each other.

So I want you to ask me something you think you should know about me, something that should be obvious, but you have no idea about, or something you've always been curious about but have never asked, or something completely silly that you'd like me to answer for kicks. No limits on the range of questions, either: ask me anything you want to know about, whether it's a fannish opinion or a question about a fic of mine or trivia about my real life or my thoughts on events in the offline world.

So I went and got my bandage changed today.

I feel violated


EDIT: Mom just came home, her coworker baked me some banana bread

Dear flist, I took a double dose of painkillers today and I

I went outside for a bit today, it was fun seeing the sun again. Other than that I've been watching more Lost, and I'm almost at the end of Season 1.

I don't really feel lonely right now because my friends have been flowing in and out of my house over the past few days, and some more people are coming over tomorrow. Its kind of awesome, I didn't know this many people cared enough to pay a visit :D

Oh yeah and here's a meme

Post here and I'll tell you which song you remind me off

I've been hooked up for a day and half and I'm already sick of it all. I mean, I'm not as restricted movement-wise as i thought I'd be but the damn thing is so fucking uncomfortable. Not to mention that the goddamn thing CONSTANTLY makes this "pttbbbth" noise that makes it sound like I am farting every damn couple of seconds. This is gonna be a looooong recovery.

On the bright side I've gotten back into EO2 and damn this is pretty addicting, I just can't seem to put it down unless the game does pulls one of its trademark dick moves(which happen pretty often) but even then I usually pick it up again 10 minutes later.

Oh and I'm already a third through the first season of LOST

This show

This fucking show Hnnnnnghhhh :mexican:

I woke up today and my room is full of things that don't belong to me

And I feel kinda sick

Man I'm so sapped I think I'm just gonna watch Supernatural and play Tales of Vesperia all day ugh

( And meme 'cause I'm bored )